Sunday, December 27, 2009

India part 3:

ayiyiyiyi!!! There's SO much to tell. So sunday night we went to a Tai kwon do ministry and Allegra gave her testimony and we all sang a song for everyone. I sat next to this Indian girl who had the prettiest earrings, so naturally I complimented her on them. Later on in the night I was talking to Rosie and the girl came up to me and handed me her earrings and sai that she wanted me to have them! How precious is that?? AHH. I love everyone here. Monday we went to the slum schools and taught english. It was really hard because the slum that me and another girl Kelsey went to was SO BAD. Seriously, worse than anything you see in movies like Slumdog Milionaire. But the kids we're SO adorable. All they want is to be loved on. I want to take one home. Tuesday we had campus ministry where we went to Delhi University and invited people to coffeehouse. I gotta tell you, I fell in love with the staff here. Most of them are from North east India and they are so freaking funny. I want to take them home too. haha I just hope we all stay in touch. I have officially fallen in love with India. The End.

Friday, December 25, 2009

India! part dos:

The last couple of days have been really good!!! I LOVE INDIA! I would even go as far as saying that I would maybe want to live here! I love the people and I love the food and I love the clothes! (I'm actually having a ball with all the jewelery and clothes here... so be prepared when I come back in full Indian dress! jk.... kinda.) Yesterday we had our off day so we went to this cool market where they had all this pretty jewelery and stuff for really really cheap. I got some cool punjabi pants that in all reality look like hammer time pants but one of the indian girls said that it was the latest fashion in India. So yeah I'm pretty trendy and Indian. No big deal.
One thing that's really hard about India is that there are beggers EVERYWHERE. And we are told not to give them money because the money doesn't normally even go to them, they have to give it up at the end of the day to someone else. So on the way to the market there was this beautiful Indian girl who was begging us for money. She was so dirty but you could so see that under all of that was this beautiful woman that God loved. He doesn't just love me. He doesn't just love you. He also loves this woman. I mean I guess I always knew that, but God really showed me that in that moment. People treat these people like dirt. Or worse. So I felt like God really didn't want me to just walk away and ignore her pain. So instead of giving her money, I gave her my lunch.
So I'm really excited for debrief week in February because well first of all I'm going to have a crazy shopping spree... But we're going to the Taj Mahal and we're going to ride ELEPHANTS!!! yeaowl. that's right.
Today we went to a church service and it was in Hindi and English. My team sang a song and I gave my testimony for the first time ever. I was so nervous. But I didn't faint or anything so that's a good thing. We saw a bunch of monkeys on the way to church and of course, lots of cows. yeah... just walking in the street. They outnumber your average squirrel. And that's the truth. The other night at 4:30 in the morning we were awoken by a HUGE parade with a full drumline and trumpet marching through the street outside our house. That's India for ya.

baibai
al

India! part one:

So it's day four of my Indian adventure! I think this is going to take a lot of adjusting to. Our first day here we went shopping at a local market for Punjabis to wear during ministry. It was a lot like playing dress up in the middle of a circus. But it was a lot of fun. I learned how to haggle! Wearing punjabis is like wearing your pajamas all day. I just might have to wear them all the time when I get back to America... So be prepared. To get from place to place most of the time we have to take a rickshaw pulled by a little old man on a bicycle and sometimes we have to fit 3 people on one! Poor poor guy. Don't worry, we gave him a tip. Indians sure know how to party. We've seen an engagement parade in the streets so far! and they ALWAYS shoot off fireworks. Almost every night! It's basically one big party here. We went to this Advent Christmas party the other day and had worship, a talent show, gift exchange and FOOD. The food here is soo good. A little spicy, but oh so good.
It's so surreal to thing that I'm in India! I'm half a world away from most of ya'll! Isnt that weird??? I can't even believe it. ahh!

ok baibai
al

Saturday, December 5, 2009










New Site location!!!

Sorry! There were some technical difficulties with my other website, so this will be where ya'll can get updates for the next 3 months. Here are the earlier entries:

September 28, 2009
Hey yall! Or I guess Szia!!! So I finally got this website thing to work! So I arrived in Budapest on September 9th with my friend Erin who’s going to the Discipleship Training School with me. The Slaughters picked us up and they let us stay at their beautiful house for a couple of days. Thank God! We moved into the YWAM house on September 14th and everyone here is soo nice!!! There’s a total of 9 students in the DTS, all from the states except two who are from Canada and Brazil. It’s so amazing how close we’ve all become already! We all have so much fun. Always laughing. Our own little family. So we started classes last week and our first topic was evangelism. As the speaker was talking all I could think about was “uh, I can’t do this.” I mean, I’m not a very outgoing person, it’s really hard for me to just walk up to a stranger and start talking to them about my faith. So throughout the week I prayed hard about it. I was questioning if my coming here was a mistake and other things like how am I going to get through these 6 months without my family? Then I was presented with this verse: Jeremiah 29:11-13--- ”11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” This really spoke to me because I knew for a long time that this is where I was supposed to be and I just needed to be reminded that the Lord would always have my back, no matter how lonely I felt at the time. So now going on my third week here I’ve realized that this is the place that God wants me to be. No doubt about it. I am called here to give myself and seek the Lord whole heartedly, which is something I should’ve started a long time ago. I guess I feel like back home I sought him out, but never did it whole heartedly. I have to die to myself so that I may live in Christ. Please pray for boldness and confidence to step out of comfort zones... Because we all know that God doesn’t give a hoot about comfort zones. God bless yall.

September 30, 2009
So every week in the DTS we are taught a different topic by a different speaker. This week is worship. How exciting is that?! Worship has always been my absolute favorite thing ever. Just pouring your heart out in song. So great! I’ve learned so much about worship in this past week. To me, worship has always been standing around and singing. I always thought that was enough. This week has taught me that you have to surrender yourself daily to God. Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual act of worship. Romans 12:1 And I thought to myself yeah, yeah... I can do that. Surrender myself to God. Easy peasy. But I didn’t realize that surrendering myself entailed that I surrender ALL of me. That’s how much it costs. Everything. Now THAT’S hard. Then I thought about the truth in the song “Jesus paid it all” . “Jesus paid it all, All to Him I owe; Sin had left a crimson stain, He washed it white as snow.” Now I just feel like anything that’s keeping you from surrendering yourself to the Lord totally isn’t worth it. You might think that it is now, but it’s just a lie. A temporary happiness. A fake and superficial happiness. Don’t get me wrong, I still haven’t fully surrendered. It’s a daily struggle. I’ve always held on too tightly to worldly things I guess. I know that when I do give it all, it’ll change my life forever. And that’s scary. But it’ll change in a good way. The best way possible. That’s when I ‘ll start really living. Worship songs are all just words on a projector unless you really call on the Lord and when He answers back, don’t be scared about what he’s asking you to do. All he wants is you. So lift your hands in the air! Fall to your knees and pray. That all sounds crazy and different. You just have to trust Him and say “Yes, Lord”. Say it every time. Because God will have His way. It’s just the easy way... or the hard way. So I say just do it. He just wants you. Because He loves you. More than you will ever know. I pray for all the homeless people we got to love on last night. I can’t wait to see them again next week! The language barrier is so frustrating, but the sweet smiles say enough. That sounds a little cliche I’m sure. Oh well, sorry. God Bless you!!!

October 1, 2009
Wow. Talk about divine appointments. I just had one of the most amazing, most heart wrenching nights of my life. It all started with street outreach. The team went to Nugati, which is like a mall and subway stop and we all walked around and talked to people while Sam sang. After that Erin, Kristin, Kelsey, and I went to the mall to just mess around and hang out... We were there for a while just having fun. Then on our way home we saw this elderly homeless lady getting robbed by this other homeless guy. We went over and tried to help her because we had met her last Tuesday on sandwich run. Her name is Judith. We were praying for her, but the guy came back and went into her purse and started eating this hamburger out of it. Then she was like “oh no!” and started crying. So we were all like uh... no. So we told her to come with us. We all grabbed her stuff and took her to a safer place to sit. Then Erin and I sat with her while Kristin and Kelsey went to get her more food. While we were sitting with her, Erin and I prayed for her and sang amazing grace for her. She started singing with us with tears in her sweet, sweet eyes. Needless to say, we were all crying by the end of it. She tried talking to us but she didn’t speak english. So we just sat there for a while and kept her company. Then Kristin and Kelsey came back with a bunch of groceries. Bless their hearts, they got her bananas, cereal, water, a toothbrush and toothpaste, a sandwich, socks, and chocolate!!! She started bawling and hugging us and kissing us. Then we were all bawling. Then we prayed for her and kelsey gave Judith her cross. She figured that she’d need it more. Praise the Lord that we were able to help her! He brought us there. He’s with her now keeping her safe through the night.
Please pray for Judith and all of our other homeless friends. That God keeps them safe and they can find a decent place to rest their head and that they can get some food in their stomachs.

October 27, 2009
Hey sorry it’s taken so long for another update! I’ve been so busy! Well let’s see... The team just got back from Macedonia for a week and it was such a great experience. All 13 of us packed into the cars ready for the 14 hour drive through Serbia and into Stip, Macedonia. We all got out of our normal routine and got a little taste of how our outreach in December might be. It was pretty stressful not knowing what was going on and not really having any distractions, but it really brought the team together. So that was good. We sang worship on top of a mountain overlooking the city and in the streets of Stip and we prayed over the city. Coming back to Budapest was weird because it felt so much more like home. Now we have about a month left in Budapest. In the beginning of December we’ll be heading out to India for 3 months. As of right now we’re going to Delhi, Calcutta, and Shi Long. I’m both very excited and very nervous. Outreach is going to be really hard. But with the Lord by my side I know I can do it.

November 13, 2009
Oh boy, do I have a story for you. There’s so much, I don’t even know where to start really. So a couple of weeks ago I really prayed for God to change me and help me just give up my whole life to him. And I found this song by Jeff Johnson called Ruin Me and the lyrics go something like this: Now the plans that I have made Fail to compare When I see your glory. Ruin my life The plans that i've made Ruin desires For my own selfish gain Destroy the idols That have taken your place Till it's you alone I live for And as some of you may know, in about 3 weeks our team is going to be leaving for India. And let me tell you, that scared the living shadoobie out of me. I sank into a deep depression about being away from home, and I was dealing with tons fear and anxiety. I was so low that I was like getting ready to pack my bags and go home. I cried everyday and it took all my strength to get out of bed in the morning. And in the past I would go through the same things, but I was able to just shrug them off and not really deal with it. But it got really bad. I finally was like ok, I need someone to help me. So I started talking to the staff about how sad I was and everything, but nothing was getting better. I was almost mad at God for bringing me here and putting me through this. I was like, uhh... What happened to never leaving me? Why aren’t you helping me? And so I struggled for a couple more weeks until one day in class Brenda Young was talking about strongholds and how fear is a result of lack of faith. And that none of the things that I was feeling came from God. For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power, of love, and self discipline. -2 Timothy 1:7 So at the end of class she asked us who wanted to break free of their strongholds. And I was like UHH... ME!!! So I went up to the front of the class and everyone kind of knew that I was having a rough time, but I had to tell them all of it. So I sat there in front of everyone bawling my eyes out saying how I just felt like I was in this dark tunnel with no light at the end and just had no hope at all. Then they went through these steps to have freedom again and they all started praying for me. While they were praying, Rosie and Lucas felt like they were going to throw up. And for those of you who don’t know, I have a phobia of throwing up. And really, that was the root of all of my fear. So everyone was agreeing and saying that I need to get over that and not let fear rule me anymore. Then they continued praying and I just continued crying. And do you know that feeling you get when the rays of the sun just warm your face? Well I always thought of that feeling as God kissing me. Alright, so here in Budapest, it’s been gray and rainy everyday for the past like 3 weeks, and right when they finished praying the sun came out. I was like oh my God, you really do love me. So the next couple of days were better, but they were still a struggle. These things don’t just happen over night. But our speaker this week is SO CRAZY. In the best way possible. We’re learning about radical christian faith if that gives you any clue to what this guy is like. And oh my gosh, I love him. He’s like a Jamaican Rafiki. Well, one day after class he took each one of us and kind of prayed for us and prophesied over us. When he got to me he was like “ohhh! The joy of the Lord is your strength. You need to be drunk on the Holy Spirit! You will be drunk on the Holy Spirit for 3 months. I don't know why it’s 3 months, that’s just what God told me.” And I was SO excited, because that's how long the outreach to India is! So I was like yeah all I have to do is get through the 3 months and I’ll be good. WRONG. tonight I was talking to my mom and Nathan and I realized how I have lived the last 2 months. And I was so disappointed in myself, I felt like I had wasted the past 2 months. I felt like a failure. And I felt like I was slipping back into the hole of despair. But all of a sudden I heard God loud and clear. He literally yanked me up out of the water like Jesus did with Peter when they walked on water in Matthew 14:22=31. He said to me that this mindset I had about outreach was skewed and that “just getting through it” isn’t going to be enough. That I need to go all out. He said that he has so much for me and the past couple of months have been to prepare me for what’s to come. That I need to trust in Him and not put my faith into other people. He showed me the kids of India and how much joy I’m going to be able to pour into them because of the joy he gives to me. So the moral of this story is Hosea 6:1-3 “Come, let us return to the Lord, He has torn us to pieces but he will heal us; he has injured us but he will bind up our wounds. After two days he will revive us; on the third day he will restore us, that we may live in his presence. Let us acknowledge the Lord; let us press on to acknowledge him. As surely as the sun rises, he will appear; he will come to us like the winter rains, like the spring rains that water the earth.